Thursday, June 17, 2010

Going Through a Difficult Time

I haven't felt much like creating lately and when I do, I end up not liking how the cards turn out. I think it has to do with my mom. She is starting to feel the effects of the cancer more now, and the symptoms and weakness seemed to happen out of nowhere. We had lunch the other day and she felt pretty good. 3 days later, and she just seems so weak. My heart aches for her. I hate seeing her suffer, and yet I know it is going to get even worse. I'm trying to prepare myself....so difficult. I'm very thankful to have all my brothers and sisters nearby. We are such a good support group for each other. My husband has also been such a help....he's there for me to talk to and cry with. Then there are my friends and wonderful co-workers! Love them all so much! I don't mean to bring anyone down today. It's just that it really helps me to write down what's happening and how I'm feeling about it. So thank you for reading this...I know it's not easy.

I did manage to play with some ink today. Even though it's difficult for me to even come up with any good ideas for a card, it helps me find peace when I'm sitting at my craft desk, stamping and distressing. I know you can all relate to that feeling and I'm so grateful that I found this hobby. This card is just a result from mindlessly playing around. Started out masking with an oval Nestie and ended up with this. ???



I used Wild Honey Distress Ink for the background and stamped the Hero Arts Exotic Bloom stamp with Vintage Photo. I added a few too many Hero Hues Gems, but I couldn't stop myself! I found the pretty, sheer ribbon at Michaels. Here's a closer view to see the dimension I gave to the oval. I think it looks kinda cool to see the white masked part underneath.



Thanks for bearing with me through this long post. I love blogging and visiting all of your blogs too! I also enjoy looking at and commenting on cards in the Flickr pool! It all somehow helps me when I get the feeling of being overwhelmed. I'm off to work now....

20 comments:

Michelle said...

Hi Barb, its so sad to hear about your moms health condition and how it affects you, I know what you mean when you are crafting and feel happier and less troubled.. Hugs!!

Love todays card, never seen anything like it anywhere:-) I think it might be one of the best you have done, I love all the rich tones!

Hope you have a great day, and know that there is always me and everyone in the group who are willing to listen whenever you feel like putting it down in words:-)

Warm Hugs,
Michelle.

Sue McRae said...

So sorry to hear about your Mom Barb. Even when you don't feel creative it's good therapy to just sit and play and see where it takes you. What I call "aimless" crafting helps to keep your mind occupied during difficult times. Take care!

Hxnnie (Hannah) said...

I'll pray for your mom's health and happiness always.. thanks for sharing your story and your card.

GrammySue's Creations said...

Hi Barb, I am so sorry to hear about your Mom. I will keep her and you in my daily prayers. My Mom died 34 years ago and I still miss her. Thanks for sharing your story, it does help to talk about it. Card Theropy is also good to keep your mind busy. You take care and God bless. Hugs to you.

Jennifer said...

I'm so sorry to hear about the pain and trials Barb...So glad you shared it with us. You, your mother, and your family are in my prayers.

Hugs,
Jenny F.

Heather Maria said...

Barb, I'm so sorry to hear that your mom isn't doing well at the moment. You are both in my thoughts and prayers. Your card is gorgeous. Love the creative design and your distressing is wonderful. Take care. Hugs.

Monika Reeck said...

Oh Barb so sorry to hear that your Mom is not doing well at the moment...I can feel your sadness dear...I want to tell your distressing card is AWESOME...love this card..thinking and pray for your Mam here..hugs

Lin said...

Sending hugs, Barb. This is something we all will experience in our lifetime, but it doesn't make it any easier, does it? I pray that your Mom's pain will lessen and that you will find a way to be at peace with the situation.

Virginia L. said...

I'm sending you virtual hugs from Taiwan. It is difficult to go though this tough time. Please know that I'm here for you! This card is gorgeous and I'm glad that you find peace and relief during the creating process.xoxox

Nat said...

Barb... I am so sorry to hear your Mom is not doing well. Please know that my thoughts are with you and your family to make it through this diffucult time. Huge hugs. Nat

alexandra s.m. said...

Dear Barb,

I'm so sorry, I cannot imagine how difficult this must be for you.
Your cards are still exquisite and I'm sure it warms your Mom's heart to have such a creative daughter.
My warmest thoughts are with you ~

Simone said...

Barb I am so sorry to hear about your mom. Just know that you and your family are in my thoughts. Card making is good therapy and I'm glad it keeps your mind busy. Your card today is absolutely stunning and I love the masking effect you did :) Thinking of you and sending you big hugs xox

donna mikasa said...

(((HUG!))) I know what you're going through--I think we all do. Here's hoping your mom will have more good days than bad and that cardmaking will continue to be good therapy for you! Take good care of yourself, Barb.

Sarah said...

Thinking of you, Barb...and praying for you and your family. Big hugs. Glad you were able to make a card. It's beautiful!

Debbie said...

Your card is beautiful. My heart goes out to you. Yesterday was the 6th anniversary of my mom's passing. It is so hard to watch someone you love go through something like that. Try to make the most of the good moments and take care of yourself too. I am so glad that you have a supportive family near you. Sending big hugs your way.

Jill said...

So sorry to hear about your mom, Barb. I can't imagine how hard it is--I wish you didn't have to go through it! Please know that your whole family will be in my prayers!

Your card today is totally AMAZING! Seriously, I love that frame, the colors, the embellishments. A true masterpiece, my friend!

Suzanne C said...

Beautiful card Barb. I am so sorry about your mom. I feel for you and your family. Prayers to you and your family.

Tiffany said...

This card is really, really gorgeous, love that almost water like illusion of layering the nesties, WOW! Love the colors! My heart goes out to you my friend, giving you big hugs right now! Yes, it is hard to see our elders, especially our very own parents hurting! WE LOVE them so much and know how much they've taken care of us when we were little! Thinking of you and your family!

Dawn said...

Barb - have been looking through some of your older posts after being away... thank you for sharing your pain. Like you I found it helpful to write things down when life gets hard... I didn't even care if people read it or not... but please know my thought and prayers are with you all while your Mum goes through this... Your card for her is fabulous and will have cheered her up I know!!!!!

MarcyK924 said...

Barb - I'm so sorry to read about your mom. This is the second person today. I guess I'm of "that" age. This was never written in the rule book of life they give you at birth! I want you to know that you and your family will be in my prayers and I really hope you can still find that peace in creating the art that you love so much. I know it gives me joy every day! xoxo